Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

uh, it’s so hot and i can’t sleep!

it’s 3pm and i have to wake up at 4:30pm to get ready for work. that leaves, let me see, NOT ENOUGH TIME TO SLEEP! normally, i’d welcome the lack of sleep, it means i have more time to do other things, but lately, it’s just been a pain. wanting to sleep but just ain’t getting any.

i read somewhere that lack of sleep can drive a person insane! something to do with the need to dream (i think). so well, i might start acting strange and crazy… "more than usual?" - you might ask. yes, more than usual! hehehe!!!

what can i do to pass the time these sleepless days? hmmm… let me think:

1. i could study for LOMA, but i just don’t want to right now… hehehe - way to set an example

2. i could download some songs, but i can’t think of any in particular i want to search for - any ideas?

3. i could watch a tv series box set but someone i know is hoarding dvds… he knows who he is.

4. or, i could write more nonsense in my blog! = DONE!

why is letting go so painful?

why do we need to hold on so tight to the things that matter the most to us that we risk crushing it?

why doesn’t knowing what’s right equal doing what’s right?

why is it difficult to follow what our minds are already telling us?

why do we allow emotions to get the better of us?

why do we have to feel jealousy to prove we care?

why do we need to feel wanted and needed?

why is it never enough?

why do we feel disappointment?

why can’t things always go our way?

why can sharing be so difficult?

why do we want the things we can’t have?

why can’t we have our cake and eat it too?

why? why? why?

i don’t want any answers.

i just don’t want any whys either.